Showing posts with label Loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Loss. Show all posts

Thursday, July 21, 2022

RIP Dixie Lou

Hi, Friends, 
How are you? I hope you are doing well.


I am doing better as the unexpected loss of our Dixie has begun to sink in. 
September of 2010 - July 18, 2022
Dixie was our empty nest girl. 
We lost both of the family dogs in 2010. Six weeks after we lost my Jack, our daughter was headed out the door with her friend. I asked them where they were headed. They said they were going to the animal shelter to look at a dog. Our daughter felt like we needed another dog. 
I decided to tag along. We went back again that evening when Bill got home from work. 
We brought her home the next day. 


She was about 12 weeks old. 
She was a retriever/blue heeler mix according to the paper work. The owner released her because they had too many dogs. 



We got her a week or so before a very big snow. The new Cowboy Stadium was hosting the Super Bowl that week. We had ice for days. We were potty training a new puppy in much lower than normal temperatures but she trained very well. She went potty on command almost every time. 


She loved the lake. 


She hated the jet skies and tried to attack them. She swam really far out into the lake right after this photo. I had to swim out after her. I was fully clothed. I was so mad because she would not listen and come back to me. 


She was not afraid of the water and wanted to do everything we were doing. 
She loved boating. 



She was a fabulous watch dog. In fact, we missed a package delivery the day after she died. 




She loved hunting for lizards and chasing the squirrels. 


"Get out of the flowers." 


She did not like having her picture taken. 
She was empathetic. 


I'd just had my hysterectomy in the photo above. She didn't want to leave my side. 


We could count on her to alert us to storms and possible tornados.


She was such a pretty girl. 

We made her the happiest dog when we bought our house out in East Texas. She was so mad at us the day we to go the closing because we were gone for hours and hours.
 I kept telling her that she was going to be thrilled with our surprise. 
I'm sure she thought we bought it just for her. 

Here are some photos that I took and one captured with the game camera. 


She loved it there so much. 


She still loved the snow. 



She rode the ATV! 
She loved everyone who came into the house. 
She surrounded them with kisses and fur! 


Our friend took the campfire photo. I love it. 
 

She loved us. 


Dixie was almost 12. She was over weight but we'd been working on that. 
Her last check up in April was fine. We didn't do blood work because I wanted to do that right before her next dental cleaning which we were going to do in August. She had been licking her shin quite a bit but the Dr. couldn't feel anything abnormal. She'd lost six pounds and we were all so proud of her. In hindsight, that should have alerted us that something was wrong. 
She was slowing down but she seemed fine. She'd been running around in East Texas just the weekend before. 

We stayed home this past weekend. On Friday night, I noticed that her abdomen looked weird. She'd been shedding a lot and her fur was poofing out. I thought that might be why but I pressed around and she didn't exhibit pain or anything. 
On Saturday she was normal. She was a little lethargic but it was also over 100 degrees on Saturday so we were all lethargic.  
Sunday morning Bill fixed her breakfast and she didn't eat. She laid around most of the day, but again, nothing unusual. She ate a small nibble of food on Sunday night. 
Bill thought that she needed a good walk and a good poop. She poops a lot when we're out in East Texas and since we stayed home he thought, she needed a good constitutional. 
Early Monday morning, he took her for a short walk around the neighborhood. He said that she kept stopping. She rested when she got home. At some point later that morning, I saw that she had thrown up in the living room. This is gross but there was undigested food. 
I called the vet. They didn't have an opening that day but I could bring her in the next morning. 
I checked on her periodically. She moved around and napped in her favorite spots. I put food out later in the day but she didn't eat. 
At 4:30 that afternoon I watched her breathing. Her breathing wasn't too labored but her chest compressed and then her abdomen would poof out. It was funny looking. I called Bill and told him that I thought we needed to take her to the vet. Since it was so late in the day, our vet couldn't see her. They told us to take her to the emergency hospital. 
We got there at 5:30. They took her straight to the back. Her demeanor was subdued although she walked in by herself. They said she was stable. After an hour or so, they recommended x-rays and blood work. Their air conditioning was out that day so it was really uncomfortable in the waiting area. They told us they would take good care of her while we went cool off and to get dinner. 
After dinner, they called and they wanted to talk to us. 
With trepidation we headed back to the hospital. 

They found a lot of fluid on her heart. Her abdomen was also swollen. 
She believed that she had a vascular cancer and that a blood vessel had burst which is why she declined so quickly. She gave us two options. They could drain the fluid, which would return or we euthanize her.
Her dog recently had the same thing so she recommended putting her down. We let our kids know what was going on. We asked our two local children if wanted to be with us. 
They were both about 40 minutes to an hour away so they declined because they didn't want to prolong her distress. 


We stayed by her side and then it was done. We came home in shock. 
I cried off and on the next day. I could not believe it even though I felt like something was really wrong all day on Monday. 


I knew that she was a bigger girl and that she probably she wouldn't live to be a ripe old age. 
 I'd had that in the back of my mind as she got older.  
I'm very grateful that she didn't have a prolonged illness. I am also grateful that the choice of what to do was very clear and that any agonizing decisions were basically out of our hands. I'm so glad we weren't out in East Texas when it happened. 


 She started as a little 12 week old shelter pup. She had a fabulous life. We had so many great times with her. We always knew that we were so blessed to have her.   
Our Dixie Lou brought us abundant joy. 
We will miss her. 
Katie 

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Hello, Again

"Hello, Again"
I was riding around in the truck the other day and I heard this song by Neil Diamond. 

Hello again, hello
Just called to say hello
I couldn't sleep at all tonight 
I know it's late but I couldn't wait


 I don't know about you but when I can't sleep, I pray.
 I immediately thought of that.



Hello, my friend, hello
Just called to let you know
I think about you every night
When I'm here alone and you're there at home,
hello

When it got to the "here alone and you are there at home,"  I almost lost it.
It made me think of every lost loved one that has gone before me. 
I miss them so.



I'm sorry to the people that see my driving down the road weeping.
It happens. 
Nothing touches my soul more than an inspirational song.   
I know that this song was written for the movie "The Jazz Singer." 
I have absolutely no connotation for this song except that gleaned from listening to the lyrics because I never saw the movie. 
 Maybe, it's been crazy and maybe I'm to blame
But I put my heart above my head
We've been through it all 
and you loved me just the same 
and when you're not there
I just need to hear

 I'm so glad that there are people in my life that love me unconditionally. 
That is what drew me to my husband. 
I knew he loved me know matter what.



The Lord also does this for me. 
I stray. 
I forget my devotion to Him and all that He has done for me.

  

Hello, my friend, hello
It's good to need you so
It's good to love you like I do
And to feel this way 
When I hear you say,
hello

He has seen me through so many storms.
I need Him.


  
Am I perfect representation of the Christian walk?
Heavens no!
I know without a doubt that He is always there. 

Hello, my friend, hello
Just called to let you know
I think about you every night
I know it's late 
But I couldn't wait
Hello

"I couldn't wait."
Oh, that I would feel that way about prayer and reading my Bible.



I know that when I'm awake in the middle of the night, it is time to pray. 
Someone - Somewhere needs prayer. 
I think about Him. 
What do you do when you can't sleep?
Katie 

Here is a link to the song. 

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A Stroll Thru Life

Sunday, May 11, 2014

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day!
I got a wonderful gift for Mother's Day.
My son's former employer flew him in to town to do some work this weekend. 
I didn't think he would be back from N.Y. until Christmas. 


It makes my heart happy to have all three around today. 




For as long as I can remember I wanted to be a mommy. 
I learned to nurture and love my children from her. I've missed her longer than I knew her. She taught me how to sew, knit, bake, cook and garden, even when she was sick. Ten short but fruitful years. 
One day... and it will be a glorious day.

Mother's Day is always a bitter sweet day for me. 
I know I'm not the only one.
A sweet blogger friend sent me this link last night. 
It was precious to read and struck a cord with me.  
Thank you, Jeanette for the link and your sweet note.

I hope and pray you all have a blessed Mother's Day. 
It can be a joyous or painful one or both. 
Hugs to you!
Katie