Hi, Friends,
It's been a little bit since I've checked in. This will be a little chatty.
How are you? I hope you are doing well.
I had great intentions of doing a country house anniversary post but that didn't happen.
To be perfectly honest, I'm not sure exactly what to say but I'm sure I'll think of something.
Last Wednesday night I saw a thread hanging out of Caroline's bottom. I thought it was just caught in her fur but when I tried to remove it, she squeaked and I realized that it was stuck inside.
Bill had already gone to bed. He heads to bed early because he is commuting to Dallas again which has us both sad.
Anyway, I thought I should wake him to tell him that I was taking her up to the animal hospital.
He groggily said he was coming with me. He and Caroline have bonded. He's bonded with her more than any animal we have ever had. The tech took her back to the exam room. She thought they would be able to remove it quickly and that they wouldn't even charge us.
Nope, They wanted to do x-rays.
We said, "Of course."
They didn't see a needle but they were a little concerned that the thread was stuck somewhere and that the intestine would start compacting.
I imagined pulling on a thread to gather a ruffle. They wanted to open her up to have a look. Each hour is critical. The longer that the intestine bunches up the more damage there is.
We agreed even though the cost was astronomical.
Caroline has just captured our hearts. She is only a year old and we want her with us for many years. We've had her since May and we are in love.
I think that a cat that travels in the car is a rarity and she travels really well. She is a darling.
In the past, Bill said he would never spend thousands on animal but he was willing to fork over a bunch of cash for this cat.
I just wanted our new little sweetheart back to her old self.
They had a surgery scheduled in front of Caroline's.
They asked if we wanted to see her again before surgery.
I was crying. Caroline kept rubbing her head against our hand like she wanted us to get her out of there.
It was heart breaking.
We came home and tried to get some sleep. It was 2:00 a.m. at this point.
We cried, we snacked, we dozed.
I kept waking up with a panicky feeling. This isn't our regular vet but we've dealt with them many times before for after hours stuff. Still. They had never done surgery on one of our animals. The vet looked like he was barely out of Kindergarten instead of a graduate out of vet school. I was worried about long term damage from opening up her intestines. Yet, he said they do this surgery every day. That made me feel a little better.
At 4:30 my phone rang. When they sedated her for the surgery, they were able to remove the thread without opening her up. She had relaxed enough that they could get it out.
I was so relieved. Exhausted, I cried very happy tears.
We snuggled her close when we got her home.
I napped when we got her home but that was all until I went to bed Thursday night.
Wow. I am too old for all nighters!
Bill slept about an hour total. Thankfully, he was able to work from home.
I don't know if this makes sense but somehow after I lost my dad at the age of 17, I began to believe a lie that if something bad is going to happen, it is going to happen to me.
When my mom died, I was 10. I remember thinking, "Good. Nothing bad will happen to Dad."
When the unthinkable transpired and he died, it affected me. I knew that the unthinkable can happen.
I had a nagging feeling that God was hard on me.
I know that He isn't but the last year has caused many of those old feelings to come to the surface again.
Covid, buying the house in East Texas, not getting to spend much time with my family, has worn me down emotionally. When this happened to our kitty, I had to remind myself that all would be okay if we lost our sweet Caroline. It would be so sad but it would be okay.
My emotions seemed magnified for the situation. It was the middle of the night and I was exhausted but I sobbed at the thought of something happening to her.
My growth and maturity, healing and trust have been challenged in the last year and a half.
It's a reminder that that growth is a life long process. There are steps forward and steps back because childhood trauma is a beast to overcome.
Are we more attached to our sweet kitty because she came to us during a hard season in life?
I don't know.
I do know that she has been such a joy to us and that she has enriched our lives.
She is such a wonderful gift and I know who gave her to us.
We are very thankful that she was okay.
"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6
"If you then being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him. " Matthew 7:11
That is all for now.
Katie

























































