Saturday, May 12, 2012

Mother's Day

Mother's Day is a bittersweet day for me. 
I lost my Mother when I was just 10 years old. 

Having my own children saved that day. 
For as long as I can remember, I wanted to be a mom.
I loved playing with my baby dolls growing up.

I am sure that love for babies came from watching my mom with my two little brothers. 

She was very nurturing. She was also an amazing, artistic woman. She loved antiques and gardening.

 She made huge braided rugs, needle point pillows and cushions. For Christmas she knit our stockings. My parents refinished every door in our turn of the century home.
I get my love of home improvement and 
 my love of old things from both of them.
Her life was too short and she left behind a legacy of sorrow for my brothers and I. We have worked to overcome missing her, but that in part has made us who we are.

Most of the time I am okay. But not really on Mother's Day. Is it just me or does anyone else who has lost their mother tear up in church because of all the moms reunited with their children?
I've noticed others wiping tears from their eyes, so I don't think it's just me. 

Like I said, my children are a balm to my soul on Mother's Day.
I look at them and know that my mom would have cherished the living daylights out of them, just like I do.
They are a fulfillment of a longing I have always had for children. 
I am so proud of them and I love them.

I thought I would be so sad to see them grow up and that I would miss the years they were living at home. Instead there is a feeling of completion. I will never be done being their mom but I am content knowing that they have their lives to live and that they can now be who God created them to be.

The little old ladies all told me it would go by so fast. I didn't believe them but they were right. 

It seems like yesterday that they were this size. 

(You can't tell they are related at all!)

One thing I don't recommend is sorting through their old children's book and their baby clothes on Mother's Day Weekend.
My word! 
I hope you all have a blessed Mother's Day. 
I know for those of you who long for children this day is tough one as well.
My thoughts go out to all of you who join me in finding 
Mother's Day bittersweet.
Sprinkled with memories,



  1. Happy Mother's Day to you too. You sound like you have wonderful memories. Cherish those memories.

  2. Katie,
    Happy Mothers Day to you.I know this is hard for you.But what a blessing your children are.

  3. Thanks for your honesty Happy Mothers Day Katie Sue